Kneeling Bridge Ministries

Come, let us worship and bow down, let us kneel before the Lord our Maker. -Psalm 95:6

This week has brought about a lot of change for me....it was as if once I said it to myself and to God that I knew what he wanted....everything became so clear to me.

First I must update you on how great our God is....and I happen to think has a sense of humor.....on the first day of this blog I asked God for yet another sign...well within an hour I had an email offering more medical equipment if I could disperse it to places in need....then after talking to my Pastor on the way home about God's leading, he called and told me about a phone call he had received after we talked. It was a church in Maryland who wanted Ukraine missions video and after we spoke, a possible new partnership was formed......Did I ask for a sign or what???? Ha! I bet God shakes His head at me in laughter. :)

To sum it up, I have offered my present employer a contract deal where basically I do the work but not in the office and take a reduction in pay/benefits to help them out as well......

We shall see.....if it doesn't work out---then it's God will and I am fine with that. I am crazy but I am excited about having to depend on Him for such provisions....it's exciting....yes scary but what a ride.

Thank you Lord!

and as the sermon today will be....Lord use me as Your servant in any way You can!

Psalm 1

1How blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked, Nor stand in the path of sinners, Nor sit in the seat of scoffers! 2But his delight is in the law of the LORD, And in His law he meditates day and night. 3He will be like a tree firmly planted by streams of water, Which yields its fruit in its season And its leaf does not wither; And in whatever he does, he prospers. 4The wicked are not so, But they are like chaff which the wind drives away. 5Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, Nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous. 6For the LORD knows the way of the righteous, But the way of the wicked will perish.

Stepping out in faith vs secure in fear

Father, so often I feel like the boy's father who first exclaimed, "I do believe!" then in a flood of sincerity cried out, "Help me overcome my unbelief!" -Mark 9:24

In a nutshell.....I have been feeling God's leading to do more ministry work and for years have sort of built upon this. God has placed many things for the fruition of this in my path--things I could have never accomplished without Him. So this year, it has been literally burning within me to do something....what I didn't know. But I knew it was something. So I began to search for what it could be...non-profit's, ministry positions within other vocations, etc and upon speaking with someone about an opportunity, he said..."you have your ministry work so why are you searching for something else to go into....sounds like you know what you need to do!" Wham...God may as well have hit me with a 2x4. Yes....I did/do know that God has been leading me to my current ministry work---Kneeling Bridge Ministries---visions that He has given me over the years to further my involvement with missions/medical missions.

Now for the fear issues: money, insurance, money, uhhh money....did i mention money? you get the picture....I am scared to death....how/should I form Kneeling Bridge Ministries as it's own corporation, how will I get paid...how much will I get paid.....will people & churches support me, am I crazy, all these things are swimming in my head and heart.

See the issue is that I want to work part-time or contract so I can have more free time to do ministry work and fund-raising....but I am scared to death of this.
so do I stay secure where I am, bored and feeling mediocre in Christ?????

I ask for your prayers----I want to know this is exactly what God wants me to do....although I KNOW this Lord!!! but please give me another sign.....and forgive me for asking again when I have heard you already.....comfort me...give me the courage & discernment to say the right things to the right people and Lord that this work out as YOU have planned!
-amen